Religion...

i was in church this afternoon and this just hit me...Inspiration... people write songs and, personally for me, hymns which have the hairs on the back of my head just stand and say the Lord's Prayer. some are so beautiful that it brings tears to my eyes whenever i hear them. songs like Here I Am To Worship by Darlene Zschech... boy, that song just gets me...

now here comes the doozie... these songs are based on the Christian God and the wonderful things He has done for man... here i am to worship, here i am to bow down, here i am to say you're my God... he is glorious and shameless, full of love and yet in his abundant love and name, man has committed the most atrocious crimes one can think of...

the holy of tribe of Israel were the first belittle every other country there was and they still do...no one was or is better than them and if you dared to say otherwise, their God would have your whole tribe wiped off the face of the earth...damn, that is love...

one of my closest friend has evolved from this realm of thought that it must be Allah or Jehovah who caused the world and the entire universe to have come into being...he is starting to sound very convincing. imagine this...most wars which have been documented were at some point started by a religion or based on religion. Muslims, Christians, Hindus, Buddhists and every other sect of people hide behind a godhead, purport ideas of honour and respect to a higher being and in his or her or it's name, call to arms and kill some body...

what i don't understand is how you say a deity is perfect and yet has the same flaws as humans...jealousy, hate and nepotism.

i would believe a father who deserve the praise and worship i hear in these songs should be one with no humanly blemish and of love which is transcendent of all possible human knowledge.

i believe there is a force which created this marvel we call existence...allowing it to evolve and grow and become something we have no means of understanding in a million years even if we tried our hardest, yet gives us the will to do so everyday...

i believe one day the truth will be revealed...but i shall continue to search for it...

Joy...jt...

the internet has given us, apart from porn and ways to pirate the wares of others, the chance to gain a wealth of knowledge which until the turn of the century were the privy of snotty nosed kids in some boarding school or high walled university library. 

it has given me a medium to put my thoughts into and to find several like minded individuals to share my "nonsense" with... hurray for Darwin and evolution...

this is my first post and there will be others... hopefully,  i will be able to sustain this, as i never usually end anything i start... American call it A.D.D, my dad says it's laziness...